Serenity Prayer

I spent a lot of time at my grandparents house growing up, and this quote was always hanging on the wall..

"God grant me the serenity to ACCEPT the things I cannot change, the COURAGE to change the things I can, and the WISDOM to know the difference." 

That has always stuck with me. I have a very hard time letting things go, and I tend to dwell on things that I have no control over. I like to be able to fix things and I like things to go the way I think is right. I have always struggled with the fact that I am not always right, and that there are more ways to do things than "my" way. I get caught up in my own little world, where things are perfect and easy. Lately this quote has been in the back of my mind for a lot of different reasons. The 6 months that Trev will be gone I decided to make it ME time. Time for me to remember who I am and try to become a better, happier person. When you get married and have a baby, you tend to lose focus off yourself. So I thought, with all my free time I'll have not taking care of Trev, I will take care of me. [Now don't worry I haven't neglected Noah, and I have not missed one day of sending a letter to my awesome hubby] Anyways, back to the quote. I need to realize and understand that there are some things that are completely out of my control and i need to step back and accept things and people for what they are. I need to accept that sometimes things are not going to work the way I think they should. People aren't always going to be nice, and sometimes plans can get changed. I need to not have a panic attack over it. So that's the accepting things part. I also realized that the only thing I CAN control is me. If something needs to be changed in my life, I must first step back and think "Is there something I could change that could help the situation?" I need to have the courage and confidence to change things in myself before I worry about anyone or anything else. Knowing the difference has always got me lost in the past. I tend to think I can change people, and things, and well, just everything. I need to know that there are things I can change for the better, and then there are things I should let go of. So this is my new daily mantra for now. 

"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."

** Got another letter from Trevor today. Oh how i love hearing from him. He is awesome. Top 5 in everything in his group (or whatever it's called.) He misses Noah boy. He always asks," How is my Noah doing?" And today his letter said," I could sure use one of his laughs right now." Haha. I love him. I am grateful for him and glad that Noah and I are his whole world. I am glad that I found someone who loves me unconditionally and someone who is such a wonderful dad. I am thankful for our relationship and how strong it is. Okay, I kinda lost my point here..... I'm gonna go do some dishes!**