something that has my feathers ruffled..

First just let me say that I think everyone is entitled to their own opinions and feelings.. So I was watching the news this morning and there was a story about a woman claiming she didn't love her daughter. When I first heard that I was a little shocked. I mean, I can understand being annoyed with your kids sometimes but to just not like them?! Seemed a little extreme. I do not understand why you would want to share this personal information with the world. Think of the damage that could do to your child, knowing your mother does not like you?! (Granted this woman kept her identity a secret but still) Anyways, as the woman shared her story, she said from  the moment she held her baby girl she was not connected because the baby did not make eye contact. This mother was repelled and disappointed that her daughter was not sleeping or eating good or hitting the important milestones she should be hitting. Um is it just me, or does this woman sound a bit harsh? A baby isn't supposed to make deep eye contact. And it's 100% normal for a baby, even a toddler, to not sleep or eat good. You have to have tons a patience. (Which trust me, I do not have, but I still would never dislike my baby because I don't have enough patience to deal with him and the challenges of being a mother.)  And if my child was not hitting the necessary milestones he should be hitting, I would be very concerned, not disappointed.  I mean get a grip, the child needs attention and love and help... not criticism. I am so appalled by this story, I truly do not understand why a mother would want to share these sad feelings with the world. I guess, good for her for owning her feelings and trying to reach out to others who may feel this way. And she is in therapy so that's good too I guess. Back to the story, she said her daughter was diagnosed with some kind of growth delay problem. And somehow that diagnosis made the mother like her daughter a bit more and try to have more patience with her. This just seems weird, that she was relieved to have something wrong with her daughter and the diagnosis made her love her.  Oh and something else that is really sad, this mother has a second daughter who she feels totally connected to and loves with all her heart. That is so sad to me. One daughter gets love and attention while the other daughter gets nothing. This story breaks my heart. I know that there is probably more to the story and I am sure this woman isn't as bad as she seems, I just really don't like the idea of not loving your own child.

I am so grateful that I love Noah and that he loves me. I am thankful we have a close bond. I never really thought that it was possible to not love something that came from you and you worked so hard to bring to life. Apparently it's possible. I love Noah more than everything in the world, and I would be lost without him. Yes, I get frustrated with him and I lose my patience on a daily basis, but I would never trade him for anything. And he brings way more joy to my life than I ever thought possible.